The one that almost had me quitting scrolling

[heppnerguy]

This great pattern by Bernd was the one  that almost had me flicking in scrolling. I wanted so much to cut a really  good pattern for my neighbor who owns a 1967 Chevy   convertible that he restored and had owned for 17 years. He, like so many car enthusiasts loves and cherishes  his car. I know how important this car was to him and how much he loved having it that I wanted the best pattern I could get to cut  and give to him. Bernd stepped up to the plate and made the great pattern for me and then he cut it and made the video of it, that so many of you enjoyed in this forum. I was unable to do a satisfactory job cutting it and got myself really depressed, as this was to be a perfect gift. I messed up very badly and I was thinking I should just give up and flick in my scrolling hobby. Well, Bernd, being the giving and caring person he is, Sent me the plaque  he made in his video to give to my neighbor. Following the chevy plaque failing, I followed with the nurse bear screw up. So, things were  just not going well for me. Because of the encouragement from Bernd and several of you, in my previous posts, I am now over my depression and moving on. Thank you all for what you have done for me. I am not usually depressed and take things in stride. I just wanted this one to be perfect.  My thanks especially go out to Bernd and all he did for me. 

 

Dick

heppnerguy 

[amazingkevin]

LOL.!!! I knew this was a tough one so i blewit up 16''. It's still going to be a tough one and may chose not to do it unless bigger. I can't blame you for trying ,that's more than I did!!!

[Foxfold]

Glad you're feeling better Dick.  We all have 'those' times, I know I do.  Sometimes I feel like getting under a duvet and doing nothing !!    I can't do right for doing wrong and the world seems to be turning the wrong way.  Depression is an awful thing and can strike without warning.  Onwards and upwards my friend, you are too good a craftsman to give up. I look forward to seeing more of your fabulous work.  

 

[heppnerguy]

11 minutes ago, Foxfold said:

Glad you're feeling better Dick.  We all have 'those' times, I know I do.  Sometimes I feel like getting under a duvet and doing nothing !!    I can't do right for doing wrong and the world seems to be turning the wrong way.  Depression is an awful thing and can strike without warning.  Onwards and upwards my friend, you are too good a craftsman to give up. I look forward to seeing more of your fabulous work.  

 

I am feeling much better and ready to tackle things again.. just maybe a tad bit less aggressive for awhile

Dick

heppnerguy

[Badgerboy]

Bernd rocks!  I had the pleasure to meet him in person as we live quite close and my world is better for meeting him.  
 

Dick, don’t toss away a hobby you obviously love and clearly excel at high levels in the pieces you post here.  Bad days always fade away eventually.  Be blessed!

[Crosstimbers]

I've been where you were many times. Sometimes I feel like God's telling me that He doesn't want me doing this. I hope that's not the case. And like you, I usually come out of it fine. But it's painful while you're going through it. I've been busy with other work lately so I haven't scrolled in a long time. Then last week, I get an order for several items I didn't have in stock. I was so excited. Then I set down at the scroll saw and I couldn't do anything right. Had to start one pattern over 3 times. I didn't think I would ever get it done. But now the order has shipped and I'm looking forward to the next project.

I'll hang in there if you will!

[Dragonkort]

our hobbies sure can keep us in turmal!!  I don't know how many different crafts iv done where for one reason or another things just don't seem to be going my way!! I USED to do a lot of flinging things across the room in disgust with me the project and the materals I was using lol I no longer fling things across the room lol iv mellowed a bit in my old age..lol in stead I gently slam the uncooperative piece on the table counter of what ever and mumble and grumble as I walk away in total disgust!! lol   just this morning I sewed one row of my sweater backwards!! then I tried to tear it out so I could fix it, but since the border and the sewing are in white I couldn't really takeout the stitches ( I tried ) without wreaking thewhole thing grrr !!! so I just set it aside for a few hours and then decided well since its just for me I don't really have to fix it lol and maybe nobody will notice one row is sewed on backwards and im going to make that the last row of the sweater so I can always say I did it on purpose so that it would be different !! lol hey im the only one except now you guys who knows its a mastake lol 

[Charlie E]

I've dealt with depression for over a decade. A poor performance on the scroll saw can set mine off as well. Depression lies, tells us we may as well quit because we obviously don't have what it takes. The most comforting thing is sometimes just knowing you're not alone.

[Rockytime]

I understand about depression very well. I've lived with it for many years, not mine but my wife's. Depression can destroy a person making one feel absolutely unworthy and useless. Not something to trifle with. I'm so glad you are getting free from it!

[wombatie]

Dick if there is a right and wrong way, I always manage to pick the wrong.  Point in question I just ordered a Kindle book from Amazon, I have done it lots of times before, today I clicked on buy the audio book $10.99 instead of the Kindle Book $9.90.  You can't return the audio books, so I am stuck with a book I cannot hear.  Yes I did order the Kindle book as well.
What did I do to cheer myself up?  I bought myself a new phone. 
We are always here to listen and to offer encouragement, so take heart my friend and lean on your friends.

Marg

[daveww1]

nice job

[heppnerguy]

19 hours ago, Badgerboy said:

Bernd rocks!  I had the pleasure to meet him in person as we live quite close and my world is better for meeting him.  
 

Dick, don’t toss away a hobby you obviously love and clearly excel at high levels in the pieces you post here.  Bad days always fade away eventually.  Be blessed!

 I am in the process of scrolling a couple of pieces for new greatgrandson's coming in June. I have to say, that because of my 'failings' and discouraged feelings, I have found that I am doing much better with these new projects and my feelings for continuing to scroll are back. I am really happy with my new projects and hope to re-cut Bernd's car pattern again, before too long. 

   I have to agree that Bernd is truly a man of integrity and a good heart. I am so glad I have gotten to know him some, if even on phone and through texting. You are lucky to  know him personally

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

17 hours ago, Crosstimbers said:

I've been where you were many times. Sometimes I feel like God's telling me that He doesn't want me doing this. I hope that's not the case. And like you, I usually come out of it fine. But it's painful while you're going through it. I've been busy with other work lately so I haven't scrolled in a long time. Then last week, I get an order for several items I didn't have in stock. I was so excited. Then I set down at the scroll saw and I couldn't do anything right. Had to start one pattern over 3 times. I didn't think I would ever get it done. But now the order has shipped and I'm looking forward to the next project.

I'll hang in there if you will!

We are together on this brother, I know i am not alone. Feeling discouraged is not something I do well, but thankful I am over it. I do not have a down attitude, very often. This whole thing has been very different and I am back on top, as you are.. thanks for the encouragement. 

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

17 hours ago, Dragonkort said:

our hobbies sure can keep us in turmal!!  I don't know how many different crafts iv done where for one reason or another things just don't seem to be going my way!! I USED to do a lot of flinging things across the room in disgust with me the project and the materals I was using lol I no longer fling things across the room lol iv mellowed a bit in my old age..lol in stead I gently slam the uncooperative piece on the table counter of what ever and mumble and grumble as I walk away in total disgust!! lol   just this morning I sewed one row of my sweater backwards!! then I tried to tear it out so I could fix it, but since the border and the sewing are in white I couldn't really takeout the stitches ( I tried ) without wreaking thewhole thing grrr !!! so I just set it aside for a few hours and then decided well since its just for me I don't really have to fix it lol and maybe nobody will notice one row is sewed on backwards and im going to make that the last row of the sweater so I can always say I did it on purpose so that it would be different !! lol hey im the only one except now you guys who knows its a mastake lol 

I guess we all have our time and days. This project was really special for me and usually I can overlook my dissappointments but this one 'had' to be perfect. I failed, but now I am back on track and cut anther new piece today and I am doing very well and my mind set is back in place. Thank you for sharing with me, your struggles as well. It helps to do so

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

16 hours ago, Charlie E said:

I've dealt with depression for over a decade. A poor performance on the scroll saw can set mine off as well. Depression lies, tells us we may as well quit because we obviously don't have what it takes. The most comforting thing is sometimes just knowing you're not alone.

You are correct, it does help. I want you to know, I am doing fine and feeling successful. I didn't want to lay this on everyone here but it sometimes helps to talk about your troubled times and this is like 'family' here so I just poured it out. 

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

15 hours ago, Rockytime said:

I understand about depression very well. I've lived with it for many years, not mine but my wife's. Depression can destroy a person making one feel absolutely unworthy and useless. Not something to trifle with. I'm so glad you are getting free from it!

It really is not something I have to deal with most of the time. I am not a down guy normally and do not have this happen to me. I am fine now and sorry to hear that your wife had this type of problems as it is not easy for those you love to deal with either. Thank you for sharing this with me. Good to have people you have never met, care enough to listen and share with you

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

12 hours ago, wombatie said:

Dick if there is a right and wrong way, I always manage to pick the wrong.  Point in question I just ordered a Kindle book from Amazon, I have done it lots of times before, today I clicked on buy the audio book $10.99 instead of the Kindle Book $9.90.  You can't return the audio books, so I am stuck with a book I cannot hear.  Yes I did order the Kindle book as well.
What did I do to cheer myself up?  I bought myself a new phone. 
We are always here to listen and to offer encouragement, so take heart my friend and lean on your friends.

Marg

Marg,  Thank you for your message. It is wonderful to have supportive people in your life and here is where  'family' also resides. I often think about the time a couple of years ago  when you came to America and we almost had an opportunity to meet in person. I would have enjoyed getting to meet you and your husband. I am over this depression thing and back on track. I feel so much better and hope to never have this type of thing back in my life again. I have a wonderful woman for a wife and she is always there for me. Also I have God in my life and I am very glad about that. 

Dick

heppnerguy

[heppnerguy]

5 hours ago, daveww1 said:

nice job

It was a disappointing reminder for me and I will keep it hanging on my shop wall to remind me that I am not always able accomplish everything I set out to do and that is OKeh and it is just a part of life that reminds me that I am not perfect, or even close to it. 

  Thank you for the encouragement, I appreciate it

Dick

heppnerguy 

[Dragonkort]

hey im glad your feelling better!!  my youngest daughter suffers from depression as well....but she calls me and we talk nd I can usuly make her feel a little bit better if only for a short time while were talking.....I can usuly by the time were done talking get her to laugh at something....yup its ok to not be perfect God loves us anyway!!  and of course all of us here love you too. and we have all had projects turn on us from time t otime lol 

[munzieb]

Dick, I'm feeling guilty for sending you on this downward path. When you said you were looking for this pattern, I thought to myself, sure, this is a pattern I would like to cut also. I do spend a lot of time working on the design refining the lines with the full understanding that I know this is what I am able to cut and knowing that  can modify the pattern on the fly as I cut. If the gap between lines are too thin, I can lean to the opposite edge that is meatier and also not take the cut to the very end of the drawing line either, to make a larger bridge. These are things I don't necessarily pass along with my patterns. I guess I should, now knowing it can help others cutting the pattern. I need to have more forethought when I pass these designs along. I know that the grill was a major challenge. I use the Sharktooth 0/3 puzzle blade because of the fine tooth cut. It allows me to nibble away at the holes. Looking at it now, I should try to minimize the detail and try to keep it simpler. My intent was not to send you into a funk and I truly hope you will try this pattern again. I'm here to walk with you when you are ready. 

[spirithorse]

Hi, Dick, @heppnerguy,
Sorry to hear that you were so upset over your minor set-back.
We have corresponded quite often so, you know my feelings are sincere when I
tell you that you are definitely a fantastic scroller and a fantastic friend.

@munzieb gift was amazing! Thanks for helping out!

Sometimes it seems that the harder we try to be just 'good people' that we have a
common enemy that wants to fill our minds with doubt.
No matter what, I just try to remind myself daily that there is always someone that would
gladly trade places with me.
As always, you and your family are in my prayers.

God Bless! Spirithorse

[Kepy]

I know your feeling very well.  I finally finished a piece that I swore that I would finish before I died but decided that wasn't the end.  Scrolling has what has kept me going.

 

[Fedido]

Glad your feeling better. I have been there myself and understand the struggle. Just glad you didn’t give into that monster. 

[heppnerguy]

15 hours ago, munzieb said:

Dick, I'm feeling guilty for sending you on this downward path. When you said you were looking for this pattern, I thought to myself, sure, this is a pattern I would like to cut also. I do spend a lot of time working on the design refining the lines with the full understanding that I know this is what I am able to cut and knowing that  can modify the pattern on the fly as I cut. If the gap between lines are too thin, I can lean to the opposite edge that is meatier and also not take the cut to the very end of the drawing line either, to make a larger bridge. These are things I don't necessarily pass along with my patterns. I guess I should, now knowing it can help others cutting the pattern. I need to have more forethought when I pass these designs along. I know that the grill was a major challenge. I use the Sharktooth 0/3 puzzle blade because of the fine tooth cut. It allows me to nibble away at the holes. Looking at it now, I should try to minimize the detail and try to keep it simpler. My intent was not to send you into a funk and I truly hope you will try this pattern again. I'm here to walk with you when you are ready. 

 Bernd you did not send me on a downward path. What you did was exactly what I was hoping for. That being, you would see my post and hopefully make me one of your  wonderful patterns. You did exactly what I was wishing you might do. I understand about the weaker parts of a pattern like the ones you make and I too try to allow for the ones that look like they might cause me to not be able to complete as they are. I understand the thin parts, just as you do. I believed I could cut it well, as long as I was very careful in how I went about it. Perhaps a better blade choice would have helped. I thought I was on target with the one I was using as it has always given my good results in the past. You did not send me into a 'funk', I became upset with myself and frustrated with myself but only thankful to you for making me this pattern.   As I told you earlier, the pattern was not very clear when I downloaded it from the  one you emailed me. I guess something was lost in the electronic messaging of it. I w  ish to thank you for the hard copy you sent to me, as it is much better than I could get electronically. Rest assured that I plan on cutting it again in the near future. I am most grateful to you for ALL you have done for me and I feel awful that I caused you any grief over all this. You are  one swell person and I appreciate you very much

Your friend,

Dick

[heppnerguy]

14 hours ago, spirithorse said:

Hi, Dick, @heppnerguy,
Sorry to hear that you were so upset over your minor set-back.
We have corresponded quite often so, you know my feelings are sincere when I
tell you that you are definitely a fantastic scroller and a fantastic friend.

@munzieb gift was amazing! Thanks for helping out!

Sometimes it seems that the harder we try to be just 'good people' that we have a
common enemy that wants to fill our minds with doubt.
No matter what, I just try to remind myself daily that there is always someone that would
gladly trade places with me.
As always, you and your family are in my prayers.

God Bless! Spirithorse

I know the frustrations I had are really not very important, compared to all you are going through and are just a disappointment of myself. Thank you for your prayers and we pray for both of you also. you are correct about Bernd. He is a very giving and wonderful person, just like you. I did not mean to get so much caring thoughts come my way, as I am not trying to find comfort from this, as it is my own silliness coming through, I guess. But I just needed to get if off my chest. I do not suffer from depression but rather frustration brought on to myself by disappointment in myself. I think I choose the incorrect wording in my post. Thank  you for your blessing and I cherish all the concerns and blessings I received from this wonderful family in The Village. We are all as one here.

Dick

heppnerguy